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alphie_damiek (2/2)
For: alphie_damiek
From:lover_youshould
Part 1
your gentle love
Nino awakens to the smell of food and the pleasant realization that he spent most of the night curled around Ohno. He stays where he is, admiring the smell of Ohno's soft hair as sunlight just barely begins to lighten the room around them, until Ohno's alarm clock goes off with a horrendous beeping. Ohno jerks awake in Nino's arms, makes some grouchy attempts at words and turns it off with a smack, then comes back to turn around and curl up against Nino's chest.
"Comfy," he mumbles, already halfway back to sleep.
Nino is in danger of falling asleep again himself when he's pulled back into wakefulness by a quiet knock on the door. It's Jun, radiant as ever despite how early it is. He rouses Ohno with gentle words and, when that doesn't work, increasingly sharp pokes to the side. In the kitchen, the table is already set with three drinking glasses, three coffee cups, three sets of cutlery, three plates, and when Nino and Ohno take their seats, Jun loads their plates with eggs and toast and fills their cups with coffee. They eat mostly in silence, trading the occasional sleepy-eyed smile or full-mouthed comment about how delicious the food is. Right around the time Ohno is finishing his second helping of eggs, Jun's phone starts beeping; he fishes it out of his pocket and turns it off, then herds Ohno into the shower, leaving Nino to sip his coffee alone.
Jun comes back before long and starts cleaning up, humming quietly as he goes. Nino sits back and watches him, finishes his coffee, pours himself half a glass of orange juice. Jun has just started washing the dishes when Nino finally says, "You two seem pretty serious."
Jun doesn't turn around, just keeps washing. "Mm."
Nino continues, "You make him breakfast... He lets you stay over when he's not here... He jumps right into bed with your old sex partners..."
There's a long moment where Jun doesn't speak, doesn't even move. Then he shuts the water off and turns around to face Nino. "Are you okay with this?" He doesn't sound accusatory. If anything, he looks concerned.
Nino sets down his juice and says, "Why didn't you just tell me from the beginning that you're in love with this guy?"
Before Jun can find the words to respond, Ohno comes ambling in, half-dressed and hair dripping. "Is there any more toast?"
For a few seconds, Jun looks completely lost. Then he kicks into gear, snatching a piece of toast from the plate he set on the counter. "It's cold already, Leader, do you want me to warm it up?"
"No time, Sho-chan's already here --"
Ohno takes the toast from Jun with his teeth as he's pulling his arms through his shirt, and then all three of them are rushing out towards the front door, Jun helping Ohno balance as he steps into his shoes and then leaning into the entryway to kiss him goodbye and lock the door behind him. When it's silent again, Jun stands there in the hallway with his back to Nino for a good long while before finally turning around. He looks half a second away from stumbling through a confession straight out of a drama, so Nino stops him before he can even get started.
"For the record, I'm not upset, not even a little. Last night was amazing -- you two are amazing. I just..."
Jun moves closer. He doesn't say anything, just listens.
"I just need to know what's going on," Nino says. "You two have something really special and I don't want to come between --"
This time, Jun holds up a hand to silence him. "Stop right there. Last night, did it seem like you were coming between us -- ha, ha, you know what I mean. Last night, did it seem like you were barging into something uninvited? Causing any rifts? Doing anything that wasn't completely, one hundred percent enjoyable for all three of us?"
Nino looks away, down at his feet, at his twiddling thumbs, before making his way back up at Jun. "No."
"Exactly." Jun takes a deep, shaky breath, and Nino senses that drama confession coming on. "For so many years," he says, "I missed you every single day. And then I met Satoshi. And I didn't stop missing you, I didn't stop loving you, it's just that I started loving him also. I love him, Kazu. I don't know what I'd do without him. But I love you too, just as much as I always have, and then I saw you that night and I couldn't..." The words catch in his throat, and he mouths wordlessly before finally managing to force them out: "I don't know what I'd do without you anymore either. So that's what's going on. I love you, and I love him, and if I can have you both... that's what I want."
If this were a drama, certainly Nino would have a snappy comeback ready by now. Hell, if this were anyone else in Nino's actual life, he would have a comeback -- that or he would be turning and running in the opposite direction. But this is Jun, the person Nino has been in love with since before he was old enough to even understand what love was, and now it's all he can do not to collapse right there, half from exhaustion and half from overwhelming gratitude.
Jun must mistake his silence for apprehension, because he starts babbling, eyes flitting around the room to focus on anything but Nino. "I mean, I realize that must be a lot to hear -- I didn't mean to imply that there's any sort of pressure on you to stick around -- of course you can leave if you want --"
At that, Nino actually laughs, stopping Jun mid-sentence. "Leave?" he repeats. "Where would I even go? This is literally the best thing I have going on in my life right now. I have no job, nowhere to live --"
Jun's eyes look like they're going to bug out of his head when he shouts, "What," but Nino keeps talking over him.
"The last relationship I had was with my boss at a manga cafe -- he cheated on me with one of the customers and then fired me. Before you, the last guy I slept with I'm pretty sure thought I was a prostitute --"
Now Jun truly looks horrified. "Why would he even think that --"
"I don't know, Jun! I don't know a lot of things! I don't know how I got in this fucked up situation, but here I am." He slumps back against the wall, and then he notices the stricken look on Jun's face. "I don't mean this situation," he amends, gesturing between himself and Jun. "I mean... my whole life."
In a quiet, hesitant voice, Jun asks, "You really don't have anywhere to live?"
Nino shrugs, looking away. "I've been staying with my buddy and his roommates. There's like five of them altogether. I practically sleep in his closet."
"Why didn't you say anything?"
Nino scoffs, unable to hold back an eyeroll. "You're rich, you have this megastar boyfriend -- I'm pretty sure your bathroom alone is a little bigger than my entire apartment was, and now I don't even have that anymore. It's embarrassing."
For a long time, Jun doesn't say anything. The silence stretches on long enough that Nino starts to feel paranoid, thinking that maybe Jun is going to say something weird or judgemental about his situation. But instead Jun steps closer and asks, "Can I help you find a job?"
Nino glares at him, skeptical about where this is going. "Like what?"
"Do you still like filming things?"
"I had to sell my camera for rent -- Jun, what are you plotting?"
"Hear me out," Jun says, touching Nino's shoulder as if that might ease his suspicion, which it doesn't. "Let me buy you a camera -- shut up, don't argue. You can pay me back later if you really want to, but we both know that once the shock wears off you'll just come up with some excuse to never pay me back, just like everything else --"
"You said that chocolate bar was a gift."
"-- and together we'll use that camera and your skills to help you find a job. You said so yourself, I'm rich and have a megastar boyfriend. I don't know if you've noticed, but I have connections."
Nino wrinkles his nose in distaste. "I don't want someone to hire me just because they owe you a favor."
Jun waves that off. "Then work for Leader. He's clearly super fond of you, and everyone around him thinks he's some sort of zen genius. If he says he wants you to direct his next video or follow him around and film some behind-the-scenes stuff for the next DVD, they'll at least listen to what you have to say."
It takes a moment of genuine deliberation as Nino thinks about the last time he dated the person responsible for his paycheck. But that relationship had problems from the start, and Ohno doesn't seem like the kind of guy to hold a grudge like that. "Fine," he says. "I'll give it a shot."
Jun flashes that dazzling supermodel grin Nino doesn't think he'll ever get used to. "Excellent!" His smile shrinks by a fraction, like he's suddenly gone shy. "And... I know this is a lot already, so I'm not asking you to move in with me or anything, but if you do ever need a quiet place to stay or an actual bed to sleep in, you're more than welcome to stay with either of us."
If Nino was floored before, now he's absolutely speechless. But he tries. "Jun... Thank you. I mean, really -- thank you."
Jun reaches out to hold Nino's hand, still smiling. "You're welcome, Kazu. You deserve it."
♪
In the cab on the way home, Nino sends a message to Aiba that he'll be home soon and to get ready for a story, and Aiba sends back a few emoji and roughly a dozen exclamation points. For once, it matches the way Nino feels.
The last year has not been kind to Ninomiya Kazunari. But the last week has been pretty spectacular.
alphie_damiekFrom:
lover_youshouldPart 1
your gentle love
Nino awakens to the smell of food and the pleasant realization that he spent most of the night curled around Ohno. He stays where he is, admiring the smell of Ohno's soft hair as sunlight just barely begins to lighten the room around them, until Ohno's alarm clock goes off with a horrendous beeping. Ohno jerks awake in Nino's arms, makes some grouchy attempts at words and turns it off with a smack, then comes back to turn around and curl up against Nino's chest.
"Comfy," he mumbles, already halfway back to sleep.
Nino is in danger of falling asleep again himself when he's pulled back into wakefulness by a quiet knock on the door. It's Jun, radiant as ever despite how early it is. He rouses Ohno with gentle words and, when that doesn't work, increasingly sharp pokes to the side. In the kitchen, the table is already set with three drinking glasses, three coffee cups, three sets of cutlery, three plates, and when Nino and Ohno take their seats, Jun loads their plates with eggs and toast and fills their cups with coffee. They eat mostly in silence, trading the occasional sleepy-eyed smile or full-mouthed comment about how delicious the food is. Right around the time Ohno is finishing his second helping of eggs, Jun's phone starts beeping; he fishes it out of his pocket and turns it off, then herds Ohno into the shower, leaving Nino to sip his coffee alone.
Jun comes back before long and starts cleaning up, humming quietly as he goes. Nino sits back and watches him, finishes his coffee, pours himself half a glass of orange juice. Jun has just started washing the dishes when Nino finally says, "You two seem pretty serious."
Jun doesn't turn around, just keeps washing. "Mm."
Nino continues, "You make him breakfast... He lets you stay over when he's not here... He jumps right into bed with your old sex partners..."
There's a long moment where Jun doesn't speak, doesn't even move. Then he shuts the water off and turns around to face Nino. "Are you okay with this?" He doesn't sound accusatory. If anything, he looks concerned.
Nino sets down his juice and says, "Why didn't you just tell me from the beginning that you're in love with this guy?"
Before Jun can find the words to respond, Ohno comes ambling in, half-dressed and hair dripping. "Is there any more toast?"
For a few seconds, Jun looks completely lost. Then he kicks into gear, snatching a piece of toast from the plate he set on the counter. "It's cold already, Leader, do you want me to warm it up?"
"No time, Sho-chan's already here --"
Ohno takes the toast from Jun with his teeth as he's pulling his arms through his shirt, and then all three of them are rushing out towards the front door, Jun helping Ohno balance as he steps into his shoes and then leaning into the entryway to kiss him goodbye and lock the door behind him. When it's silent again, Jun stands there in the hallway with his back to Nino for a good long while before finally turning around. He looks half a second away from stumbling through a confession straight out of a drama, so Nino stops him before he can even get started.
"For the record, I'm not upset, not even a little. Last night was amazing -- you two are amazing. I just..."
Jun moves closer. He doesn't say anything, just listens.
"I just need to know what's going on," Nino says. "You two have something really special and I don't want to come between --"
This time, Jun holds up a hand to silence him. "Stop right there. Last night, did it seem like you were coming between us -- ha, ha, you know what I mean. Last night, did it seem like you were barging into something uninvited? Causing any rifts? Doing anything that wasn't completely, one hundred percent enjoyable for all three of us?"
Nino looks away, down at his feet, at his twiddling thumbs, before making his way back up at Jun. "No."
"Exactly." Jun takes a deep, shaky breath, and Nino senses that drama confession coming on. "For so many years," he says, "I missed you every single day. And then I met Satoshi. And I didn't stop missing you, I didn't stop loving you, it's just that I started loving him also. I love him, Kazu. I don't know what I'd do without him. But I love you too, just as much as I always have, and then I saw you that night and I couldn't..." The words catch in his throat, and he mouths wordlessly before finally managing to force them out: "I don't know what I'd do without you anymore either. So that's what's going on. I love you, and I love him, and if I can have you both... that's what I want."
If this were a drama, certainly Nino would have a snappy comeback ready by now. Hell, if this were anyone else in Nino's actual life, he would have a comeback -- that or he would be turning and running in the opposite direction. But this is Jun, the person Nino has been in love with since before he was old enough to even understand what love was, and now it's all he can do not to collapse right there, half from exhaustion and half from overwhelming gratitude.
Jun must mistake his silence for apprehension, because he starts babbling, eyes flitting around the room to focus on anything but Nino. "I mean, I realize that must be a lot to hear -- I didn't mean to imply that there's any sort of pressure on you to stick around -- of course you can leave if you want --"
At that, Nino actually laughs, stopping Jun mid-sentence. "Leave?" he repeats. "Where would I even go? This is literally the best thing I have going on in my life right now. I have no job, nowhere to live --"
Jun's eyes look like they're going to bug out of his head when he shouts, "What," but Nino keeps talking over him.
"The last relationship I had was with my boss at a manga cafe -- he cheated on me with one of the customers and then fired me. Before you, the last guy I slept with I'm pretty sure thought I was a prostitute --"
Now Jun truly looks horrified. "Why would he even think that --"
"I don't know, Jun! I don't know a lot of things! I don't know how I got in this fucked up situation, but here I am." He slumps back against the wall, and then he notices the stricken look on Jun's face. "I don't mean this situation," he amends, gesturing between himself and Jun. "I mean... my whole life."
In a quiet, hesitant voice, Jun asks, "You really don't have anywhere to live?"
Nino shrugs, looking away. "I've been staying with my buddy and his roommates. There's like five of them altogether. I practically sleep in his closet."
"Why didn't you say anything?"
Nino scoffs, unable to hold back an eyeroll. "You're rich, you have this megastar boyfriend -- I'm pretty sure your bathroom alone is a little bigger than my entire apartment was, and now I don't even have that anymore. It's embarrassing."
For a long time, Jun doesn't say anything. The silence stretches on long enough that Nino starts to feel paranoid, thinking that maybe Jun is going to say something weird or judgemental about his situation. But instead Jun steps closer and asks, "Can I help you find a job?"
Nino glares at him, skeptical about where this is going. "Like what?"
"Do you still like filming things?"
"I had to sell my camera for rent -- Jun, what are you plotting?"
"Hear me out," Jun says, touching Nino's shoulder as if that might ease his suspicion, which it doesn't. "Let me buy you a camera -- shut up, don't argue. You can pay me back later if you really want to, but we both know that once the shock wears off you'll just come up with some excuse to never pay me back, just like everything else --"
"You said that chocolate bar was a gift."
"-- and together we'll use that camera and your skills to help you find a job. You said so yourself, I'm rich and have a megastar boyfriend. I don't know if you've noticed, but I have connections."
Nino wrinkles his nose in distaste. "I don't want someone to hire me just because they owe you a favor."
Jun waves that off. "Then work for Leader. He's clearly super fond of you, and everyone around him thinks he's some sort of zen genius. If he says he wants you to direct his next video or follow him around and film some behind-the-scenes stuff for the next DVD, they'll at least listen to what you have to say."
It takes a moment of genuine deliberation as Nino thinks about the last time he dated the person responsible for his paycheck. But that relationship had problems from the start, and Ohno doesn't seem like the kind of guy to hold a grudge like that. "Fine," he says. "I'll give it a shot."
Jun flashes that dazzling supermodel grin Nino doesn't think he'll ever get used to. "Excellent!" His smile shrinks by a fraction, like he's suddenly gone shy. "And... I know this is a lot already, so I'm not asking you to move in with me or anything, but if you do ever need a quiet place to stay or an actual bed to sleep in, you're more than welcome to stay with either of us."
If Nino was floored before, now he's absolutely speechless. But he tries. "Jun... Thank you. I mean, really -- thank you."
Jun reaches out to hold Nino's hand, still smiling. "You're welcome, Kazu. You deserve it."
♪
In the cab on the way home, Nino sends a message to Aiba that he'll be home soon and to get ready for a story, and Aiba sends back a few emoji and roughly a dozen exclamation points. For once, it matches the way Nino feels.
The last year has not been kind to Ninomiya Kazunari. But the last week has been pretty spectacular.
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Like I said in part one, I love the way you write, I love the way you describe everything and make the characters interact. The relationships all the characters had with each other was so, so great. Aiba being Nino's "you can count on me" bff, so supportive of Nino when he's down on his luck (and did you know that I secretly love and adore the "down on his luck" Nino character? Because I do, and you made him perfectly). And DJ MJ omggggg I literally squealed when I saw that. I loved everyone's job descriptions: Aiba as a vet tech, Jun the music producer, Ohno the idol, Sho the manager; they all worked really well for their characters and for the boys we know them as.
And ugh the Jun/Nino/Ohno triangle was amazing. The intricacies between Jun and Nino's long-lasting love, the fact that they never stopped loving each other, Jun and Ohno's open but loving relationship, the fact that Jun knows what he wants and all he wants to do is keep loving people, and the way Ohno and Nino are totally into each other and totally OK with the kind of life Jun wants to live. It was all so good to read. Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU anon for this wonderful NinoExchange fic. ♥
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I love the fact that Nino just fit in perfectly with Juntoshi and despite Nino's doubts, he really deserves the both of them :)
all these feelings that you made me feel~ I could read this forever and still ask for more XD ♥
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ahhhh I loved how they each had their own individual relationships with each other but they could still come together and be perfect and hauhauheajkheajhsjh sorry /incoherent
I just really love this. :)
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