fic for bubbly

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For: bubbly
From: lilly0

Title: Vertigo
Pairing: Sakumiya, Aimiya, NinoKame (one of them will be the main-pairing in the end. Let yourself be surprised ^_^)
Rating: NC-17
Warning: Includes a bit of smut (no PWP), very very very slight spanking (more as teasing though), boys-love
Summary: It’s supposed to be a carefree and relaxing time for Nino once he enters college, but from the first day he slips into a mess of delicate love affairs, friends’ love problems, and his very own confusing feelings.
Notes: This here was written for bubbly, with love <3 I really hope that you will like this!! <3

Ninomiya Kazunari.

21

Achieving his dream of going to university.

Very earnest student.

Humble, shy and very ambitious.

No parties, no alcohol.

Very manly.

The boy mothers-in-law were dreaming of.


These were the words Nino would remember forever, because they were the worst and most embarrassing out of the whole the letter. He stared at the sheet of paper in disbelief, eyes tightening when he saw the obvious amusement in Jun’s eyes and--who was he kidding--in Jun’s whole expression. “What’s that?”

Jun dropped down on Nino’s bed, laughing loudly. He was enjoying this little moment and living it as long as possible. “A cry for help from your mother to my mother, so that you won’t feel lonely here. I’m supposed to watch out for you.”

“I have no words for it…” Nino said, his lips tight.

“I didn’t know you were that helpless,” Jun teased, his voice particularly sweet. Too sweet to be honest. “You need someone to watch out for you, so that you can achieve your goal. After all you are so humble and shy. And earnest. Oh my god, like seriously, does your mother really believe that? Not even parents can be that blind.”

“Shut up, Jun,” Nino hissed. “Be a good friend and don’t show it to anyone.” He sighed slightly, rubbing his forehead in annoyance. This was what his mother saw in him, and what she loved to tell others. Which was unfortunate, because Nino hated it whenever she did. As if anyone believed it. All mothers were like that, but his was definitely an absolute master in praising her son.

Nino grumbled in anger, eyes darkening for a moment. Achieving his dreams of going to university? What dream? He was only at college to be away from home and his huge family once in a while. Studying at least meant freedom.

But at least one point was true in this personal curriculum. He was smart. He had always been. He didn’t exactly love school and learning, but he knew very well that he could achieve lots of things if he only wanted to.


******


“Who’s that?” Nino was following Jun through the library, a bit relieved that someone was there to show him everything. Jun had been studying here a year already, and he knew how to do things.

They had been talking to each other quietly, giggling a bit here and there. Friends since kindergarten, they always had a lot to talk about. When Nino was chuckling a bit more loudly than was really appropriate for a library, he could hear someone loudly turn the page of a book, most likely to signal them that they should shut up. Nino frowned slightly, looking the direction the sound had come from.

A young man. A bit older than he was. He was wearing black trousers and a blue-checked sweater. At home Nino had always made fun of guys who wore such tidy and prudish clothes, but somehow this guy looked good in them.

Jun turned around when he heard Nino’s question, freezing for a moment. Nino leaned back a bit, his eyes moving from Jun’s face to the mysterious guy’s, until the guy moved his gaze away.

“That’s Sho-kun.” Jun answered when they left the library, sounding as if nothing had happened right before and as if it was completely normal for him to freeze when he met a good-looking guy or someone he knew.

“Jun.” Nino looked at his friend intently, his eyebrows narrowed. “Don’t tell me that this Sho-kun…” He paused, a dangerous glint in his eyes, but before he was able to finish his question, Jun waved him off. The look in his eyes was angry, annoyed, and to Nino’s surprise, also a bit sad.

“Just forget it, okay?”

The answer was just as unacceptable for Nino as the fact that his oldest and best friend had been hurt. How could he forget it?


******


Nino was bored to death. Seriously, he was about to die. What had he been thinking when he signed up for this class? Just to do some spying on this Sho-idiot. For God’s sake, this was the most boring class he had ever visited.

By now he had learned that Sho was a tutor, giving some of the classes for first and second term students. Just that his classes were boring as hell.

“I’m falling asleep here.” A voice right next to him interrupted his thoughts. Nino turned to look at the tall, young guy next to him. He had warm brown eyes in a kind face.

Nino snickered slightly. “Want to bail?”

“Yes!”


******



“How long have you been here?”

Nino had found out that the sweet guy’s name was Aiba Masaki, and he was suffering through the same classes as Nino.

“I arrived last week.” Aiba smiled brightly. “Classes are boring. But I like the dormitory. Except my roommate is a bit strange.”

“Mine too,” Nino joked, laughing when he saw Aiba’s confused expression.

“Didn’t you say your roommate is your best friend since kindergarten?”

“Yes.” Nino smiled teasingly. “Don't you know what a joke is?”

Aiba blushed slightly at that, rubbing over his head in embarrassment. “My fault. Sorry.”

“My, my.” Nino chuckled. “Don’t give me such a face. It’s too sweet to look sad…”

“Really…” Aiba sighed slightly, though not able to hide a blush. “You are really something.” He coughed a bit, deciding to change the topic. “Did you join any clubs? We are supposed to choose one after all…”

Nino shrugged helplessly. “Jun is part of the musical club. He said it’s fun there. Maybe I’ll join. Want to come along?”

“All right, let’s do it then.”



******


Actually Nino had just been bored. Jun had gone out and spent the night with… someone. Nino had lost track of Jun’s friends. It wasn’t like Nino was asocial or anything like that, but still…he was new here and didn’t know any good places.

Normally he didn’t care. Jun went out with him most of the time and Nino wasn’t a clingy type of person. It was just that today he felt so bored that he didn’t want to stay home alone, so he went out alone, without Jun. A few drinks wouldn’t do any harm, after all. To his surprise he ran into Aiba at one of the bars, also alone.

Later he couldn't remember how it happened, but the way Aiba had sucked at the cherries of his cocktail, how he had playfully stolen some of the whipped cream on Nino’s, and how he had been laughing and giggling, all charming, warm and sweet, been totally alluring Nino.

“Damn…” Nino cursed, grabbing Aiba’s arm and pulling him through the corridor. When he paused to open the door, he could feel Aiba’s hands on his waist, his tongue licking over Nino’s neck. For a moment Nino allowed him to do what he wanted to. Then he turned around, wrapping his arms around Aiba’s neck to kiss him heatedly.

With clumsy fingers he opened the door behind them, almost dropping into the room together with Aiba. It took them only a few minutes to get rid of their clothes, Aiba’s fingers and hands all over his body.

Nino smirked slightly, grabbing Aiba’s hips and pushing him onto his bed. For a moment he could feel Aiba’s surprise, and he gloated a bit when he moved downwards, skilled fingers angling for Aiba’s cock and tugging at it playfully.

The moan that escaped Aiba’s lips sent shivers through Nino’s body. He wanted to hear more of the high-pitched, alluring sound. With a smirk on his lips, Nino bent down, his tongue moving over the tip of Aiba’s cock skilfully, feeling how it twitched between his lips and fingers. He spent some time with teasing the taller boy, before he closed his lips around Aiba’s cock, sucking and licking at it for real. His tongue pressed against the shaft, while his teeth moved over the tip teasingly.

Nino smiled against Aiba’s skin when the latter almost cried at this teasing, his body shivering and trembling. He kept this game up for a moment, then he moved away, leaving Aiba completely helpless and with a whine on his lips. He sat up, watching Aiba carefully to see how he was feeling: His lips were parted, his breath going faster and his eyes looking up at him in an almost feverish way.

“Feeling good?” Nino teased.

Aiba’s cheeks blushed, the look in his eyes wary. Nino knew that he wasn’t too experienced to begin with and that his own self-confidence and his random approach made Aiba even more nervous, but also more excited.. “Yes.” Aiba muttered.

“Good.” Nino chuckled slightly, placing a soft kiss on Aiba’s lips. Then he moved away, angling for a bottle with lube. Aiba’s eyes widened, much to Nino’s satisfaction. Most likely Aiba had expected Nino to top him without any further questions, but Nino made it clear that he had other plans. He put some lube on his fingers, starting to prepare himself carefully, but swiftly.

“Nino…” Aiba whined slightly when Nino moved away. Nino bent forward when Aiba reached out his hand to touch his cheek, his fingers gliding over his sensitive skin, making him smile into these touches.

But soon Nino was ready and moved on top of Aiba again, his legs straddling the other’s hips easily. With swift fingers Nino slicked up Aiba’s cock, before he moved up a bit. He could feel Aiba’s cock gliding into him step by step, and his breath hitched. He bit his lips for a moment, taking a few breaths and moving down inch for inch. Aiba’s hands were holding his hips, supporting him as much as possible.

When he got used to the intrusion, Nino smiled, bending forward to place a soft kiss on Aiba’s lips. Then he snickered, moving back, and started to move his hips. His hands held Aiba’s hips in place to stop him from bucking while he rode the taller man thoroughly.

Aiba’s head dropped back, exposing a delicious neck which Nino immediately moved to attach his lips to and sucking at. Their moans and sighs grew louder with every move of his hips, until Nino let go of Aiba, allowing him to set the pace.

For a moment he gasped at the desperate force of Aiba’s moves inside him, his cock pushing into him fiercely until he gasped for breath, his sight blurring.

With trembling fingers he reached down for his own cock, stroking and pulling at it before he came with a loud moan.

Just a moment later he could feel Aiba tremble and shiver, his breath going irregular just before he let go of Nino’s hips, pushing into him a few final times. Then he stilled , his cock twitching because of his orgasm.

Nino smiled slightly, sitting up and carefully letting Aiba’s cock glide out of him. He dropped down next to Aiba, his eyes half-closed, a content smile on his lips. “This was good.”

“Not good,” Aiba mumbled tiredly. “It was amazing.”


******


Aiba yawned tiredly, stretching a bit. “This was great, Nino. We should do it again occasionally.” He sounded so laid-back and carefree that Nino was relieved. He had just become good friends with Aiba and he didn’t want to lose him right after because of one heated night they had shared. It was a one-night stand, nothing more.

“Yes, maybe.” He chuckled. “So, when is our club meeting?”

“Tonight.” Aiba tilted his head in high concentration. “Want to meet there?” When Nino nodded, Aiba crawled out of his bed. “I need to go before Matsumoto-kun gets back.”

“Jun?” Nino blinked. “Why? You don’t need to run away from him.”

“He's scary…” Aiba admitted in embarrassment. “It’s his eyes.”

Nino grinned dirtily. “Most likely he is just crushing on you and wondering how to get you into bed. Hence the dark eyes.”





Aiba blushed deeply at that, mumbling something, before he hurried out of Nino’s room. He sighed deeply when he stopped outside, touching his cheeks a bit. Really…Nino, this tease.

“Hey Aiba-kun.”

Aiba almost jumped when he heard Jun’s voice behind him. He stared at him shock, blushing deeply. “Hey…” he stuttered. “I’m going now… I’m going immediately. Bye!” With that he rushed away, leaving a totally puzzled Jun behind.

Jun frowned. Strange guy, really.


******


Nino would never admit it, but he did feel sore after his night with Aiba. Still, he didn’t want to talk about it, especially not with Jun. So he gritted his teeth, following Jun into the restaurant they wanted to have lunch at.

There he was.

That Sho-guy.

Before Jun could react or turn awkward, Nino was at his side, putting his arm around his friend’s waist. “Hey Jun-baby,” he teased, tugging Jun along, throwing an angry glance towards Sho. “What do you want to eat today? It’s all on me!”

The puzzled expression on Sho’s face was already worth it, but Jun’s what-the-fuck look was making it even better. “What are you doing?” he whispered.

Nino chuckled, his eyes catching Sho’s, realizing how he was watching them. “Saving your ass, sweetheart.”

Jun blinked, before he rolled his eyes. “I will never be able to look into this complicated head of yours.”


******


Thanks to Jun Nino was immediately part of the music club, getting along with pretty much all of the members. And happily Aiba was around too, which meant at least a tiny bit of fun. Though he had to admit that the club wasn’t all that bad. They played new and interesting music, not just the classics.

It felt strange for Nino to touch a piano again. In high school he had played a lot, mostly forced to by his parents. He hadn’t had any fun with it. Not at all. But now that the pressure was gone, he felt the urge to play again, to feel the keys beneath his fingers, to touch the cold material of the piano itself. It felt good.

“Wow.” Ohno blinked, exchanging a glance with Jun. “You're good.” He was the guy Jun hung out with most of the time when he wasn't with Nino. Ohno had immediately caught Nino’s attention. In an innocent way, because Ohno was easy and comfortable to be around.

Nino smiled slightly. “Thanks.” When he got up to make place for someone else, his eyes caught a fragile figure leaning against the wall. He seemed to be a bit lost, and Nino felt his heart melt. “Hey.” He smiled at the young-looking guy. “Are you also new here?”

“Y-Yes,” the guy stuttered. “First term.”

“Mine too.”

“For real!?” the guy’s eyes widened in surprise. “I thought you'd known them a long time.”

“Well…” Nino smiled encouragingly. “I've known Jun since we were babies, and I met Masaki in one of my classes.” He paused, inspecting the guy’s pretty face. “What’s your name again?”

“Kamenashi.” The guy smiled a bit. “Kamenashi Kazuya. Everyone calls me Kame.”

Nino laughed at that. “For real? Like a turtle?”

“Yes, it pretty much sucks.” Kame grinned a bit. “But I got used to it.”


******


Nino pressed the slender guy against the wall, his lips moving teasingly over his delicious neck. He had spent the last few days trying to set up Jun and Aiba… and to his relief, Aiba had slowly started to gain some confidence. After he had told Jun that Aiba was afraid of him, the latter had done his best to make the tall boy loosen up.

Mission achieved. Almost.

If it weren’t for that Sho guy…

However, today Nino wanted to have some fun himself. And what was better than having fun with the turtle?

Kame’s slender body was shivering under Nino’s skilled fingers, skin heating up under his touches. His body was warm and soft. Nino smiled against Kame’s neck, licking at it teasingly. Then he moved back to look at Kame properly. His face was beautiful, his eyes glinting with lust, lips red from all the kissing.

Nino moved forward to kiss these red lips again while his hands moved down over Kame’s chest, pinching and teasing his nipples. Kame’s arms suddenly wrapped around his waist, pulling him closer.

“We should be rehearsing.” Kame whispered against Nino’s ear, his voice hoarse.

“Well, we are,” Nino teased, kicking their clothes out of the way while he tugged Kame along into the music room. They got rid of their clothes the moment they had entered the room. The original plan was to rehearse the newest song the band was planning to play. “I’ll show you how to use the drums properly.”

Kame had problems playing the drums, and Nino had offered his help. Music was his forte, after all.

“Turn around,” he mumbled into Kame’s ear, biting it teasingly. His hands grabbed Kame’s hips, turning him in the direction he wanted to have him.

“You're going to fuck me over the drums?” Kame snickered, grabbing the little chair he always sat on when he played the drums.

“Well, I told you I would help you improve?” Nino snickered, his fingers wandering over Kame’s butt, squeezing it slightly. Kame’s backside was a sight, definitely. Nino chuckled, smacking the younger one’s butt teasingly. He grinned when Kame squealed before he added another spank to it.

Nino grinned, kneeling down to bite at one of Kame’s butt cheeks teasingly. Then he smacked it again, watching in awe how the skin was turning from white to pink.

“Nino…” Kame moaned when Nino spanked him again, just to knead his sensitive skin a moment later.

“Say please,” Nino demanded, his eyes sparkling.

Kame bit his lip, but when Nino smacked him again, he huffed out a ‘Please’, turning around a bit to look at Nino through pleading eyes. Nino breathed in deeply as Kame’s eyes sent shivers over his body. Nino had actually planned to tease him more but he just couldn’t hold back.

He angled for the bottle of lube in his bag and hurried to slick Kame’s entrance up, before he pushed two of his fingers inside, preparing the younger one thoroughly.

“Just do it already,” Kame breathed out, his voice sounding husky. When Nino added a punishing spank to his butt, he blushed. “Please,” he added, chuckling slightly over the game the older boy was playing with him.

Nino nodded his head, smirking. “Okay.” He tightened his grip on Kame’s hips, pushing into the younger one carefully. He paused, waiting for Kame to adjust to the intrusion, and his hand rubbed over Kame’s back soothingly. Once he felt Kame relax, Nino moved his hips, slowly first, before his movements grew more impatient and rougher.

Kame cursed under his breath, his hands and legs trembling. If it wasn’t for Nino holding him up, he would have dropped down on his knees. He was far from thinking coherently when Nino suddenly grabbed his cock, tugging and pulling at it until Kame came.

He gritted his teeth, holding himself up, feeling the overwhelming sensations of Nino moving inside him. His feet were trembling. He felt Nino shiver against his back… and both of them dropped down on the floor.


“Wow…” Kame breathed out once they could talk again. He turned on his back, smiling. “This was good.”

“Yes," Nino grinned, sitting up some to angle for a cigarette in his bag. “Want one?”

“Please,” Kame smiled in thanks before he smirked. “Hopefully I improved my ability to drum with that. Since you used my butt to show me how to do it.”

Nino chuckled. “Always here to help.”



******


“Wow, are you late.” Jun frowned, putting his book away. “Again,” he added, not able to hide the displeased sound to his voice.

Nino’s eyes darkened. “What’s your problem, Jun?”

“I’m just saying…” Jun tried again, more careful this time, but Nino shook his head.

“Don’t, okay? I’m just having fun.”

“Yes,” Jun mumbled. “And that’s okay. I just don’t want you to get hurt.”

“I won’t,” Nino tried to reassure his friend. “I’m okay. Better be careful yourself,” he added, remembering the last time they had met Sho and how the latter had checked them out. He frowned. Right, Sho-kun. He needed to do something about that guy…


******

Aiba smiled dreamily while he was typing a message into his phone, oblivious to the knowing and teasing glances his friends were exchanging.

“What are you doing?” Kame snickered when Aiba had stayed in his own little dream world for around half an hour. They had all met up for dinner, the whole music club, minus Jun who was meeting his professor.

Ohno smiled warmly. “Seems to be something important. Maybe he is thinking about his homework?” he teased.

“Yes.” Nino smirked. “Or about a very handsome person, with black curly hair and strong features. I don’t know about you, but I think this guy’s name rhymes with Pun.”

The others giggled while Aiba blushed deeply, realizing that everyone here knew about his affection for Jun.



“We have strange friends…” Nino mused when he was alone with Ohno. The others had gone to get some drinks, leaving them behind for a moment.

Ohno smiled. “You have to talk.”

“Hm.” Nino smirked, leaning towards Ohno, his eyes sparkling slightly. “Is there anything you want to tell me?”

Ohno laughed a bit, tousling Nino’s hair. “Forget it. I’m totally immune to your seduction. Save yourself for someone who is worth the effort.”

Nino smiled. He knew that Ohno would never go to bed with him, just like he would never go to bed with Ohno. It was the same with Jun. This was the reason Ohno and Jun were his best friends. There was nothing like want or romantic feelings between them. “Well…” Nino joked. “If you don’t want to, then at least give me something else.”

“Eh?” Ohno blinked. “What?”

“Some information.” Nino’s eyes grew darker for a moment. “About Sakurai-san.”

“Our tutor?” Ohno frowned. “Nino…you look like you're planning to kill him. Anything you want to tell me? Are you a secret assassin?” he teased.

Nino had to chuckle at that. “No, silly. Of course not. Just curious…”



******


“Are you Jun’s new boyfriend?”

The question came unexpected. Nino had never expected this Sho guy to be so blunt and straightforward. They had met coincidentally, or at least as coincidentally as possible be when Nino popped up everywhere where he could meet Sho.

He found out that Sho was frequenting a certain bar and decided to give it a try too. Of course he had run into him. Nino was a lucky kid after all.

“Why are you asking?” Nino raised an eyebrow, his deep brown eyes sparkling. “That interested in Jun?”

“Yes,” Sho answered casually, as if it was the most normal thing to say. The frown on Nino’s forehead grew as he checked out Sho properly. Good-looking guy, really. Lips and chin too small… but strangely it fit for his face. He looked good, very good. Just what the hell had happened between Sho and Jun? Nino shook his head. No one was allowed to hurt his friends. He would protect Jun, his oldest friend, no matter what.

Hence Nino put a seductive smile on his lips, turning his attention back to Sho. “So? Why are you so interested? You didn’t answer my question…”

Sho stayed silent for a moment, inspecting the young guy in front of him. Nino was pretty, really pretty. Though fragile and very slender, he had something strong in his appearance. His eyes…it was mostly because of his eyes. Fawn-brown and radiant. They carried his whole personality.

Just what was this guy to Jun? He had heard several things about Nino while he had done his research on Nino and tried his best to spy on him. He didn’t know what this guy was up to. He had seen him with Kamenashi and Aiba and with some other guys, but he didn’t know if he was really cheating on Jun. It was perfectly fine to have friends after all, Jun had them too, and unlike Sho Jun wasn’t the jealous type at all.

After all these weeks where he had been coincidentally meeting Nino, he started to wonder about himself. He couldn’t say away. His eyes would follow the small guy’s figure wherever he was going. When Nino laughed and smiled and joked around, Sho would secretly smile to.

It was as if Nino was addictive. His whole presence would immediately engulf Sho and not let him go again until Nino left the room.

It felt strange.

Still, Nino was with Jun. And his behaviour was almost unacceptable, no matter how alluring and seductive he was in Sho’s eyes.






Nino had thought of Sho as really, really boring. He was a tutor after all and wore polo shirts and sweaters with checked patterns. How cool could such a guy possibly be? Sho wasn't overly exciting and cool, but it turned out he was interesting enough to surprise Nino.

“You should try this game.” Nino tried to convince Sho when they were talking about video games. “It’s very good.”

“But it looks too old-school for my taste…” Sho mused.

“I know, everyone says that, but I assure you, you won’t regret it.”

Sho had to laugh at Nino’s persistence. This guy was used to getting what he wanted, wasn’t he? However, Sho found himself suddenly nodding at Nino’s request. “All right, I’ll give it a try. Where do I get it from?”

“You can have it from me,” Nino offered generously. “I can bring it along next time we meet.”

Sho raised an eyebrow, but didn’t say anything. Nino had suggested it completely innocently, after all, and there was nothing wrong in meeting as friends, right? Even though Nino was with Jun, being friends would be all right. Sho sighed, unusually uncomfortable and restless, but he couldn’t think about these feelings now, so he merely nodded. “Sure, we could meet for some drinks next week.”

“Great.” Nino smiled. “Saturday, 9 PM?”

“Saturday it is.”

Nino stretched tiredly when he walked out of the bar and back through the night to his dormitory. He was in an unusually good mood as he jumped upstairs until he reached his and Jun’s door. It was only when he closed the door and eyed Jun’s sleeping figure in the bed, that it hit him. He had a date with Sakurai Sho.

Jun’s ex-lover. The guy he was supposed to hate!


******


Sho laughed whole-heartedly, his eyes sparkling. A few drinks with Nino had loosened him up and he was able to enjoy the evening completely. Nino’s presence was alluring, definitely, and he hadn’t had so much fun for months.

“God,” Nino breathed out, his head dropping against Sho’s shoulder. “I feel sick.”

“You drank too much whisky-sour,” Sho chuckled.

“Could you not say that word!?”

“What word?”

“Whisky-sour,” Nino whined. “It makes me feel even sicker.”

“All right, all right,” Sho smiled, grabbing Nino’s arm and pulling him up. “I see, we should x leave here before you faint or throw up.” He grinned as he tugged a complaining Nino outside, not listening to his protests.

Once they were outside, they both paused, the cold air of the night hitting their faces, rousing their senses a bit.

For a moment Nino stayed quiet, looking up at the sky. It was unusual to see stars in Tokyo, but he could see ten of them tonight. It was an unusually beautiful night. Later Nino blamed it on this strange atmosphere and on the fact that he had drunk too much, but he couldn’t hold back. He grabbed Sho’s waist from behind, turned him around and pressed him against the wall, before kissing him heatedly.

Sho gasped in shock before he kissed Nino back, their tongues immediately fighting for dominance, fingers touching and stroking each other’s hair. Sho tugged and pulled at it, feeling its softness, then he wrapped some strands of Nino’s hair over his fingers and pulled Nino away like that.

Nino squealed for a moment at the surprising pain, but before he could complain Sho had already let go of his hair and was pushing him against the wall. “Impatient brat,” he whispered against Nino’s ear, his voice husky and almost hoarse, sending a shiver over Nino’s spine.

Sho’s fingers were stroking Nino’s hair softly now, his fingers curling some strands of it, before they let go again, just to grab his neck and pull him into a rough kiss.



Once they reached Sho’s room and they dropped into his bed. As a tutor, he had a single room. Their lips were swollen from all the kissing. Nino didn’t know what was happening to him, but his head felt dizzy and his heart hammered against his chest madly whenever Sho touched him. He didn’t even try to regain control, he simply clung to Sho, hands around his neck, fingers brushing through Sho’s hair.

He could feel the other’s breath against his skin, leaving hot and burning patterns all over his body. He was too preoccupied with kissing and touching Sho’s perfect body to realize how Sho’s skilled fingers were preparing him and stretching him.

Then Sho was kneeling between his legs, grabbing them to push them up and apart, before he entered Nino carefully. His hands stroked Nino’s sides soothingly, fingers rubbing over his chest, lips kissing his cheeks… his nose… his lips.

Nino wasn’t sure if someone had ever been that gentle with him. He had some experiences, most of them loose connections with guys he had met once and felt attracted to, but he had never slept with someone and felt that way.

For a moment he was afraid that he was going crazy. It felt like he was about to faint, too overwhelmed by what was going on. He clung to Sho, sitting up so that he was on Sho’s lap, riding his cock thoroughly.

Soon he could feel Sho’s hands around his hips trembling and shivering, before they both dropped down on Sho’s bed, hips moving against hips almost desperately, moans filling the air, until Nino could feel a wave of lust rush over him, pushing him over the edge and towards his release.

He called out Sho’s name when he came. For the first time ever he called out someone’s name like that when approaching his orgasm. It sounded almost strange, but came so naturally that Nino decided not to bother about it.

When Sho dropped down next to Nino, his body still trembling, Nino had to smile. He rubbed closer to Sho, his fingers touching Sho’s cheek softly, before he placed a soft kiss on it.

Just like that they fell asleep.



The next morning Nino felt tired, but not in a bad way. More like a very content tiredness. He opened his eyes, turning around just enough to see that Sho wasn’t lying next to him. He blinked in confusion, crawling out of the bed. While he was still looking around, some clothes were suddenly thrown towards him. More out of a reflex than real intention he caught them, baffled. When he finally saw Sho his heart jumped, until he looked into the other’s eyes. “What…”

“I can’t believe it…” Sho breathed out, sounding almost desperate and disgusted. Disgusted at himself and Nino. “That I did that.”

“What do you mean?” Nino asked carefully, not sure if he was getting anything right here.

“We just had sex!” Sho answered, his voice shaking in fury.

“And?” Nino asked, sounding totally oblivious.

“So it is true?” Sho huffed, a sort of anger in his voice that Nino couldn’t quite put a finger on. “That you sleep with these guys even though you're with Jun?”

“What…” Nino was too taken aback to know how to react to that. Jun? What? What the hell was he talking about? And how did Sho know about his one-night-stands with Aiba and Kame? “Did you…” He took a deep breath, his voice shaking slightly. “…just use me? Test me? To see if I’m good enough for your Jun?”

“I was checking on you, yes,” Sho glared, his voice sounding cold, his eyes so dark that Nino flinched a bit. “It wasn’t part of my plan to sleep with you. But obviously you're right, you're not good enough to be with Jun. So, could you leave my room now?”


Nino was shaking when he left Sho’s room, too confused and too hurt to even understand what was going on.

But with that night and the next morning he painfully realized several things: that Sho was immensely beautiful, that he was cool and smart, that he had just had the best sex of his life, that Sho was the biggest jerk here on campus, and that he had fallen madly for him.

Out of them all… he had fallen for this jerk. Who was also Jun’s ex. For a moment Nino’s eyes widened. Hell, how was he going to tell that Jun!?


******


Aiba poked Nino’s cheek a bit, looking at his friend in worry. “Are you all right?”

Nino winced, looking at Aiba in surprise. “Masaki? What?”

“We're having a rehearsal here…”

Nino blinked in confusion, then his eyes widened. “Sorry guys.” He bowed a bit. “I’m not feeling well.”

“Do you want to take a break?” Ohno asked in concern. “Seriously Kazu, you look horrible. Just go and lie down a bit okay?”

Jun nodded his head. “Yes, he's right, you should rest.” He frowned slightly as he watched Nino leave the room. He knew Nino way too well not to realize that something was off.



Nino sighed when he dropped down on his bed, curling up there and looking at the wall gloomily. He couldn’t put a finger on his feelings, he couldn’t explain them, but he felt like a complete mess… and he felt hurt. It just hurt so much.

“I think I’m sick,” he mumbled when he heard how the door opened up and Jun came into the room.

“No you are not.” Jun sat down next to his friend, lifting his legs up a bit and placing them over Nino’s so that he had enough place next to him. He touched the other’s hair softly. “What happened?” he asked gently, his soft voice a contrast to the deep frown on his forehead. “Something happened. I know you well enough to tell that.”

Nino didn’t answer, still staring at the wall. A nervousness was filling him now that Jun was here with him, being so nice though he didn’t deserve it at all. “I did something not so good…” he admitted quietly.

“What did you do?” Jun asked carefully, patting Nino’s waist a bit.

Nino sighed, sitting up to face Jun. He wasn’t the type to run away from a problem and he needed to tell Jun. “I had sex… it wasn’t planned… I just wanted to check him out because he hurt you… and I wanted to, well, get back to him for that. But suddenly we landed in bed together.”

Jun stared at Nino in surprise, not even understanding one word from Nino’s story. “Who did hurt me?”

“Your ex-boyfriend,” Nino answered warily. “I’m so sorry Jun. I didn’t plan to sleep with him. I was drunk and he was so pretty, and alluring, and interesting. It was like falling down somewhere, like bungee jumping. I’m so sorry.”

Jun blinked in confusion, tilting his head a bit. Which ex-lover was Nino talking about here? He didn’t have a boyfriend here. He just had some casual sex during the last year, until he met Aiba a few weeks ago. “Which ex-boyfriend are you talking about?”

“Sakurai-kun,” Nino answered honestly, rubbing over his head tiredly. He frowned a bit, when a sudden pain overwhelmed him. First he thought that Jun had hit him, but then he realized that it didn’t come from Jun, the pain came from inside him. He cringed in pain, gritting his teeth to not cry at that feeling.

“KAZU!” Jun jumped up in shock, tugging at his friend’s arm. “What? What’s happening?”



******


“I can’t believe you had a panic attack.” Ohno snorted a bit. “Jun almost had a heart attack, really.”

“I’m sorry.” Nino sighed a bit, feeling too tired to tease Ohno back or to say something biting. “It just overwhelmed me.”

“Seriously, Kazu.” Ohno was earnest all of a sudden. “You need to get rid of this emotional baggage. It’s not like you to crumble under problems. So, since we're alone, tell me what happened. Every detail. I want to know it now and I won’t accept any excuses. You will tell me.”

“But Jun…”

“Jun is not here. I sent him to get some coffee. He was way too worried to stay calm.”

Nino looked at Ohno warily, not sure what he should do now. But there was something about Ohno which made him crumble immediately. Only Ohno could do that with him, to make him talk without forcing him to or without convincing him for hours. And so he did. He told him everything that happened during the last few weeks, starting with the day he arrived and witnessed the strange meeting between Sho and Jun in the library up until the day Sho dumped him and he had an emotional breakdown.

Ohno listened patiently, his thoughts obviously circling around what Nino had told him, then he smiled slightly. “So you fell in love?”

“Didn’t you listen?” Nino asked in frustration.

“Oh, I listened, very well.” Ohno smiled warmly. “You like Sakurai-san, even though he was a total jerk to you and though he is Jun’s ex-boyfriend. It just makes me wonder why Jun never talked about him or why I never met these two together. Are you sure that they were together, Kazu?”

“Yes.” Nino nodded his head. “Sho is still feeling so protective over him. It seemed to be a really deep relationship. I can’t even understand myself. How could I do that to Jun?”

Ohno blinked, tilting his head. He definitely needed to talk to Jun about this. Nino didn’t need to know that of course, because he wouldn't agree to it. So Ohno merely spoke some reassuring words, trying to convince Nino that everyone still loved him, until he finally fell asleep.


******


“Jun’s my cousin.”

Nino jumped in shock when he heard a voice behind him, his stomach cringing in pain when he saw the person that was standing behind him. Then the words the other had said finally sunk in. “What?”

Sho sighed. “Care for a coffee?”



Awkward silence. The kind of silence Nino hated the most. Awkward, nerve-wracking, annoying. “Cousins?” he finally broke the silence, still trying to grasp what Sho had said to him earlier.

Sho bit his lip, shifting around. “Yes. Jun is my cousin. I'm very protective of him, though he hates it. We had a fight because of that right before you arrived here… I guess that’s the reason why he didn’t introduce me to you. You know, we grew up very close and Jun spent a lot of time with my family during holidays. I guess you know that, right?”

Nino nodded his head warily, remembering how Jun had always gone away for holidays for several weeks. His relatives had been rather wealthy and often invited him to travel with them. Now that he remembered this, he could even recall that he had also met Sho several times, when he had been visiting Jun’s family. A very awkward and shy Sho. And Jun had always referred to him as my cousin not as Sho-kun. Nino sighed deeply. “That’s the reason you looked kinda familiar.”

Sho looked down at his fingers nervously. “I thought you were messing around with Jun.” he admitted quietly, sounding embarrassed all of a sudden. “I heard from my friends that you were going out quite a lot and I was worried about Jun. I told you that I feel quite protective over him.”

“But…” Nino shook his head. “I wasn’t with Jun. Never. He's been my best friend since we were kids.” He paused, trying to recollect all the things that had happened during the last few weeks. Then he sighed slightly. “The day when you saw us in the restaurant and I was flirting with Jun…”

“Yes.”

“I was just acting. I thought you were his ex-boyfriend and hurt him and I wanted to get back to you for it. That’s why I pretended to be his new and better boyfriend.”

“I know that now,” Sho answered quietly.

Nino looked at Sho in surprise. “Eh? How?”

“Jun told me,” Sho explained warily. “He blamed me for everything, of course, and yelled at me for hurting you and for messing with your feelings.”

“Wait…” Nino blushed slightly. Messing with his feelings? So Sho did now everything!? Absolutely everything! Great, thanks for keeping my secret, Satoshi!

“I’m sorry for what I said earlier.” Sho admitted “I wanted to check you out of course… well, you know my reasons by now. But I didn’t intend to play with your feelings. I just…I couldn’t help it. You were fun to be with and I had a good time. The whisky… the atmosphere added to it.”

Nino paused for a moment, staring at Sho in disbelief. Was this guy really telling him that this here was all a misunderstanding? That they both had been totally stupid and misinterpreted a totally simple situation? That they could have avoided all this shit? Nino sighed, then he laughed a bit, the gloomy look finally dissipating. “You really are a jerk, you know that?”

“Nothing new. You're not the first to tell me that,” Sho answered dryly. “So anything else to say? Or is that your only complaint?”

Nino grinned at that, leaning back. Sho was able to catch up, definitely. He could like that. No, Nino changed his last thought… He would like it. No doubts anymore.